The Little Crosses

I do not understand death

I do not understand death, but this subject surrounds me everyday. After all, I sell it and hope to make sure people do not die without leaving some money behind. I tell my customers that everyone dies, and I say it emotionless. Like as if I can be indifferent if I were to see it.

But early this week I am confronted with the possibility of seeing a death. It was despairing to see a person lying there, with the family members waiting for the 'death' to come.

And today, I am confronted with the possibility of seeing another death. And this time, it belongs to a family member of mine. He's my uncle.

He used to tease me and he was the first person that gave me my first drink of champagne and beer. He was such a chatty person, taking photographs at family gatherings. But now, he too lies on the hospital bed...waiting.

The sad thing is that it was so sudden. This morning he went in cos he couldn't breathe properly and now the doctor says he might not get passed the night.

Seriously, I do not understand death.

posted by Nick! @ 2/24/2005 01:04:00 am